For You

The moon’s final light runs scared from me as I wake,
The floor glistens in the morning sun.
They say it’s shock but I don’t feel a thing, someone had to break
Him down.
I look to you for answers as you shut the door,
To see him, treating you like meat
To see you so frightened,
With my soul dead, pure anger forced my heart to beat
Like a thundering drum.
My body tightened,
I wish I could say I blacked out;
That it wasn’t me,
But you hate it when I lie.

when the rain comes

When the rain comes they will flee to the sanctity of their covered homes.

Charcoal Hearted

I will never follow a heart so black as yours again. Like charcoal from the hearth.
I endured here so strong, so tough and for what? To be struck down by those for whom I care?
I trust in my heart to show me the way, make sense of those realities that vex me so. It leads me astray; down roads I cannot take, not any more. It has ruined me.
Like a once strong, flourishing oak, stricken down by the words of those who claim to protect. Processed by strangers and spit back out deemed “unfit”.
And then hope, like a tree stripped of leaves in the dead of winter I was bare. You came so peacefully, like spring, and offered me your sincerity. Took me home, again came the lies of love.
I sat forsaken awaiting what came next, a bundle of wood already stacked, missing only a match to burn me out of existence; and down you came, I burned almost too quickly, my agony fuelled the inferno.
From the beginning you planned my demise. From within your charcoal hearted body came my death.

Hear me

Hear me now, I’m sick of it, the lies and false hope. There is no end to this. There is no answer, none that I can see. So I suggest you stop looking and live.

Currents

Let it cleanse me.
Washing over me slower each time the water ebbs around me.
Currents rush forcefully underneath this mirrored surface.
As they flow around me,
through me,
I wonder what right I have to stay.
As it pushes persistently against me I wonder.

The Fool I am

Why do I so insist on making fool out of myself? Trying harder and harder each time. I say you’re not worth it. I’ll never understand what it is about you that attracts me so, I want you to care but again and again you prove ever so greatly how little you do. Is it your eyes, your nose, lips face hair or curves that mesmerize me so.
You make me feel so dumb, I don’t get why. I know the facts and I know what is. Yet every time I see you my words escape me and I hope just maybe this time you’ll stop.
But no you walk on past as I stand in place, you’ll never see me. No matter how great a fool I make of myself.

breakdown

It’s a breakdown of my poor body under this crushing soul. I can’t take this anymore. You lend your fake sincerity only so when I fall down and die you won’t feel so guilty. Keep your act to yourself and when they all say what a tragedy, lie. Lie to them and say how much you cared, how you tried to help me. Explain how I was too far-gone to be helped.