Walls

All these walls that we build, for what and for who? What scares us so badly that we should build them so high? I’d like to see this frightening world around me; I don’t recall what made me this way. Was I always so scared? Well I’m done now. What good is fearing the unknown? We can never cure this fear, unless we fight into the darkness, tear down these towering walls and face the piercing cries we hear. I will escape, follow if you wish but know that my course will stay true. I will fight and I die, but I will know my killer. Waiting, so protected, slowly dying in this trap won’t suffice any longer. My walls are down, I am all I see, my fear over whelming, but courage in my hand I will prevail, I’d rather die in the light then live inside those walls.

my path

My yearning is to help you, but I see now what went wrong. Did I ever stop to ask if you even wanted my help? No, failing to show the simplest of courtesies. I tried so hard to help without ever once questioning my actions. Should have know better by now, what is worse than a friend too arrogant to realize when his help is not wanted. Now, I stand-alone. My help was sincere, but for the worst reason. Wanting, no needing someone I looked to fill that need. So selfish; now, I endure, searching for my path. On it alone will be the truth I need. Looking to start, I stumble in such darkness.

judging

Who are you honestly? Standing there, judging me before you even think to judge yourself, But how can you? Do you dare to judge yourself so harsh? The pain you bring and life you live, how can you stand there so proud, Take a step back do you see what I see? A lonely soul lost in this world, crying out for help so loud, but no one hears you.

standing there

I see you standing there.
You still don't care
Well it's late and I'm tired,
All these hollow words and this shallow life I live
Just passing by like the moon in the sky
For a night I am strong, but come day I fade,
Set in your heat is the winning battle plan,
I loved what I saw,
Foolishly I trusted I could show you the way,
But now I see,
There you stand and here I fall. You don't want to take a chance.
Against them I fight, they try and take me down, but I've already fallen.
I will not leave, I may be down but I'm not out
Two separate roads we take, they cross but only for a while
I should of known it could not last, nothing good ever will
I've fought for so long, alone I stand and for what?
Trying to cling to something real I fall short of the world.
This lonely spot on which I slowly die, won't shed a tear when I'm gone.

Hey

So I decided to make a blog so I could actually show some of the things that I write.
I'm probably not gonna talk much about my life.

walk with me

Walk with me will you?
Its not that far I swear.
How are you where have you been, it feels like I don't know you
Not anymore at least
It’s been too long and I truly hate it
What ever happened to us really? Were we ever even true?
The promises we made those lies that you spun me
Oh no they were truth?
That’s all well and good; I've only one question now
Will you stay with me? Darkness as our cover, until that piercing sun shines through our shallow masquerade then its fine where you go. No request beyond this night
After we've danced and we've talked
If its lies that let you sleep then lie
Tell yourself it was fake, I never really loved you
If that’s what you want to hear. But I would rather die
I'm leaving in the morning
In the morning goodbye
If you'd rather lie in peace than cry in truth then, lie

pennies

I’m in love with the sound of this world
And scared by the piercing tone of my life as it falls apart
Like a penny on the track I am flattened by this world
Placed oh, oh, ohhhh, so carefully on that hard metal rail, don’t fall off, oh no not until your life hits you back
Back into that hollow shell you call a mind
And then through the dark you see a light
As it comes closer you see it dim
And all around the world starts to fade
But does it really?
Oh no, you’re not alone. No we’re not alone,
Here we are coloring this bleak world bronze,
Flattened out for the world to see
Like pennies on the track
And that light that came so slow? Just a trick
Our minds try to fix us
But our hearts just won't let them
Picked up and put away
They say they like the way we shine
But how can we shine when they smother us so?
Did we have to go through that, just so they would like us?
What about how we were?
What was so wrong w/ us then?
So young,
Pennies in their pockets, to be used and sold
Now what? We’re worthless filled with all that they say we need
But it doesn’t really matter
Nothing really does,
So what if they like us now?
It won’t last,
They throw us in a pile and that’s were we’ll stay
Until another day, but lets just stay,
Who says we want to go?
I like us now lets just stay
Like we’re, pennies on a track
The train coming fast
This time we can choose
Tumble off oh so gently onto the ground
It may be damp, but at least we chose it, at least we have each other
Lets stay how we are
Screw them and their plans
We could do what we want if only we were something more,
Than pennies on the tracks.